Touch My Heart

I like this song, especially the lyrics, dunno why.. is it something gotta do with my life, or dont. Not sure. But it touches my heart each time I listen to it.

"Selamat Ulang Tahun Sayang" - Imran Ajmain

Yang tulus ikhlas
Ingin sekali sekala dirinya dibalas
Walau hanya dengan dakapan di angin lalu
Yang selalu memberi
Ingin sekali sekala jadi penerima
Cukup dengan salam dan manis doa
Aku ingin kau merasakan hebatnya cinta
Dan leburkan saja serpihan calar derita

Selamat Ulang Tahun Sayang
Kini kau bersayap, pergilah terbang
Rentaslah langit cita-cita mu
Harap nanti kita 'kan bertemu

Selamat Ulang Tahun Sayang
Janganlah engkau tak terbang pulang
Ku nanti penuh kerinduan
Selamat tinggal, selamat jalan

Aku hanya inginkan engkau setia
Kerana setia yang mencipta bahagiamu

Salam bahagia.

Journey Before the Delivery

Curi-curi masa to write before I forget all.. jottin' down what happened during the last moments of journey before delivery.

I craved for cheese cake, drooling. Tell ya, I am not a cheese-cake lover before. On Tuesday, the 22 July ~ I took time off 1 hour from work and dengan ke'mendak'an perut yang agak besar (bukan agak lagi.. memang besar.. hehehe), I headed to Jusco Bukit Indah purposely to buy cheese. Few types of cheese, cekonon nak buat cheese cake sendiri, or pizza with cheezy-melekat-meleleh toppings, and also cheese cake ready made for me to nibble. Met Dilla - Jumboul there and she said she ngeri to see my perut.. hehehe.. besar la tu..

Back to the cheesy story - got all those, sangat berpuashati walaupun sebenarnya tak larat sangat nak jalan.. baru start kereta nak balik, dah suku habis cheese cake tu.. hahaha.. punya la tak sabar.. sampai patah2 sudu plastik tau.. teruk! I kept on spooning sampai licin while driving.. tak ke bahaya tu kan? :o) That nite, we did mini pizzas on the bread slice with mozarella toppings. Jadi la.. craze over cheese. Maybe not me, maybe the baby. Hehehe..

On 24 July 2009 - Friday, there was blood show in early morning, around 6.30am. Since I didnt feel any pain, we agreed (B and me) that I go to work.. he sent me over after breakfast at Tmn Perling. Applied for maternity leave commencing 27 July 2009 though bersalin or not, that is the most solid reason why I should be in the office, for the last day working and 'gelak-gelak'ing with office-mates before the long holiday. Ye lah, nanti rindu kat opis..

Told kawan2 office that I got blood show this morning and they asked me to go to hospital to check, worrying that I'd start to feel the contraction at office and they'd get so gelabah to handle it.. I delayed it till noon sebab tak sakit.. and at 1230 hrs, my lovely caring and loving friends, Halizah and Azzah voluntarily sent me off to hospital (for the condition check-up). We had lunch at McD where I got myself the most cheezy burger.. :o).

Then, off to Hospital, I got on me the CTG which clearly shown no contraction. The midwife and doctor, Dr Noraini verified that I might took a week to deliver since the servic is still no show of opening (very soon). But Dr Noraini said that the baby's heart was not performing fantastically and would like to see if the baby's heartbeat performing the same pattern later. I've asked to come for check-up the day after, 25 July @ morning.

Back home with B, I wanted cempedak goreng. Macam-macam.. hehehe.. (dah lama gak nak cempedak goreng ni..) We bought buah cempedak mentah kat Kipmart (to goreng ourselves back home) and cempedak goreng to munch along the way back.

Malam, I helped B with org chart and tido lambat, around 1 am settling those. No worry, baby arrival lambat lagi.. :o)

At 3.00am, I started to feel the consistent contractions, at its 10 minutes once. I woke B up, got ready to go to hospital sebab takut terbersalin kat rumah.. and we reached hospital around 4.15am. B bawak kereta punya la laju.. (ye la, jalan kosong.. selalunya traffic jam cam apa..)

'Checked-in' to the Delivery Suite no 3, the contraction started, on and off.. minor then strong, I was on gas and pain killer injection around 6.00am. Zikir are all around me. The labour pain, tell ya.. indescribable.

B was with me, holding my hand and whispering all the zikir. 7.48am, a healthy baby boy of 3.1kg born to us. Received by Dr Noraini. Alhamdulillah. It was a heavenly experience. Sub-conciously, macam terawang-awang. Alhamdulillah, terima kasih Allah. Terima kasih B for being there with me going thru the pain between life and death.

Alhamdulillah. Salam kesyukuran.

New Extended Family Member

Miracles and magic

dreams come true

cannot describe our joy..

With radiant smiles and sparkling hearts

We welcome our little boy,

MUHAMMAD MUHSIN

born on 25 July 2009, 7.48am.

Suara Kehidupanku

..Suara kehidupanku memang tak akan mampu menjangkau telinga kehidupanmu, tapi marilah kita cuba saling bicara, barangkali kita dapat mengusir kesepian dan tidak berasa jemu...

Plain Sailing

Wah.. dah lama tak update.. orang berblog, kita pun nak berblog.. tapi orang selalu2 update, kita jarang-jarang update.. gituuu..

Ntah kenapa malas bona nak mengupdate.. bukan takde peristiwa, rasanya 2/3 la jugak.. Biar ku tuliskan di sini, sepanjang ingatan ku yang sangat mudah lupa ini…

4 July 09 (Sabtu) :

Morning glory, gi antar Maisarah & Insyirah gi sekolah ganti.. then balik, terus gi pasar ~ beli daging, nak masak kari daging.. macam2 beli.. intentionnya nak buat memacam.. pastu balik masak2, then rasa penat.. hehehe.. (ngengada..), dah janji ngan Kak Dzue yg datang dari KL nak jumpa kat Paragon Hotel, we met around 4pm, En B sent me over.. (dia dari bandar, back home and back to town again...) ...harus kesian tau, kita ni kan dah nak cukup bulan.. acceehhh..

Macam nak rak2 berbual dengan K Dzue.. dua-dua cakap banyak, hehehe.. macam bertih.. tak puas jumpa.. gotta catch up Acid plak pkul 6ptg kat umah.. hopefully, dia turun lagi next time, untuk jangka waktu yg panjang so that we could berborak sampai updated la semua citer gituuu.. :o) I had a good time chattin’ with her (tapi tak cukup.. ok?), met with her cute children.. Oppss.. thanks for the tudung, K Dzue.. you are so thoughtful.

K Dzue's cuties

6.30pm, reached umah.. Acid and family dah sampai.. promised them dinner at home. Dalam pada kekecohan melanda tu, sempat buat moist choc cake untuk Hazirah.. sementara diaorang makan-makan.. cake tu dah masak.. I was like the lipas kudung, sebab sayur pun tak masak lagi masa tu.. so, En B tolong settlekan sayur.. (dia tolong kacau-kacau jek..) Sementara tu Tina, wife Acid tolong buat sambal belacan.. kesian tetamu kena buat keje.. :o). All done with satisfaction – dinner ready, moist choc cake pun sempat siap ~ semua orang dapat makan (termasuk tetamu yang datang kemudian), siap tapau untuk Hazirah and Fariz (gambar bawah). Mama dia, Tina nak resepi. Next time you come (jatuh wajib you visit me dalam pantang, ok?) harus dipanjangkan resepi itu ye Dik..

Then, didn’t stop there.. around 9.00pm, my everdearest bestfriend, Angah @ Nora came to my house, after paksaan demi paksaan dan beberapa ‘ugutan tegar’.. (tak gitu kaedahnya?..hehehe.. dia bukan kat JB ni, dia kat KL, jarang2 balik Johor..) datang dia dengan mak dia, pregnant Lily + her chubby baby daughter, cute Aishah and maid dia. We had a lovely time. Makan, borak – ketawa – then nangis. Cam tu la.. the best of friend, tears in joy. Ada je.. the feelings that only we understand. Trust her with all my life, love her to bits.

My day ended blissfully. Though penat, but worth all. Friendship and family – none other are more important.

******* Itu cerita 4 Julai 2009. *** End *******


Ini cerita 11 Julai 2009. Hari apa tu.. ooo.. Sabtu. Lepas antar Nadiah gi Klinik UPSR kat UTM.. we all pegi pasar Peladang pagi tu.. sukakan ke-Melayuan pasar tu, ada rebung, ada jering, ada jual buah binjai.. tapi this time memang takde sesuatu tujuan @ teringin-nak-makan.. chop.. apa lak takde tujuan.. ada la.. setakat breakfast je.. B mam lempeng kelapa and sup kaki lembu. Wet-marketing day for the house would be tomorrownyer, different location.. jadi, not much of intention to buy anything there.. (Pelik ek, kenapa dah sampai pasar tapi tak beli.. seebaaab tuan-tuan dan puan-puan, pasar tu diaorang tak siangkan ikan sekali.. yg pasar kitorang selalu gi tu, siap semuanya.. takyah susah-susah menyiang..) And we still got stock dalam fridge untuk lunch (that day).

Malam, gi wedding dinner – B’s friend’s daughter wedding. Grand one, I can say. Good western time. :o)

***** Itu cerita 11 Julai 2009. **** End ****

12 Julai 2009

Around 10.00am, mak datang rumah with Abah (baru). OK, he’s a nice man. She looks happy with her new life. May their find peace and companionship in each other. Amin.

1.00pm, rush for Simpang Renggam, to catch B’s relatives who come down for a nephew’s wedding. Sampai2 je we all, they were about to leave for KL. Tapi sempat la bersalam-salam.. and doa-mendoakan. I love them all. They are all beautiful individuals, born with kind hearts.

*** End for 12 July 2009 ***

15 July 2009

B outstation. Ada weekly check up. Gi spital sendirian.. (buat muka sedih ni..). Payah betul nak cari parking. Nyampasss tau. Doctor Laila buat check up to check the servik opening.. dia cakap not this week. (My due is next week, 25 July 2009). Panjang akal masa tu.. sebab dia dah confirmed lambat lagi, I took the opportunity to do last round bershopping lepas tu. Takde tujuan, takde matlamat. Semata-mata sesaje. Habis lebih kurang RM150. Uiisshh..

Dah sampai rumah around 3pm, dah lepak2 baring sebab banyak berjalan dengan perut yg besar ni.. (39 weeks) baru teringat that I was supposed to go to bank – update buku account, hantar dobi for dry-cleaning, cuci gambar, beli Mayonis.. send car for car-wash and 2/3 perkara yg memerlukan outing.. laa haiii… tak kuasa mak nak kuar lagi..

Today : 16 July 2009

Still kerja. Tunggu hari-hari mendatang. Started to feel the backache pain, very minor.. not so alarming. Doing some internet study (wah, sampai study gitu.. serious benoo..) on labour pain. Betul, dah lupa la.. al-maklum la.. 8 tahun yg lepas last melahirkan.. Hari-hari asyik kombah baju dalam bag hospital, mine and baby’s.. tak selesai-selesai.. hehehe.. En B siap sound, ‘asyik kemas beg hospital jek.. bila yang nak gi hospital ni?’ hehehe.. selagi belum.. penat beg tu, mau haus zip dia nak menunggukan waktu bebetul ke spital tau…

Yang sebenarnya, I am preparing myself mentally and spiritually for this big journey. Till then, I hope I will update this everyday sehinggalah hari melahirkan.

Salam sayang semua!